May 2012
1 post
I got over you yesterday
there was just too much brevity in our conversations these days, I couldn’t take it - my greedy loveless self wanted so much more, too much more
Today you appear with all the confessional words in the world, it felt like we were sharing a secret again;
somewhere in the back of my mind, I know this was not true, it only feels like but feelings are irrational
and...
April 2012
3 posts
sigh, why do I keep putting myself in this situation of longing?
The nights are the worst for me.
All sense of discipline gets thrown out the door and I want to give in to you shamelessly.
There is no you though.
I am holding back now when all I want to do is let go, let it all out, inundate you with all that I am and all that I could be.
March 2012
7 posts
I feel like a post box; all these feelings sent to me, are never for me.
What’s a more elegant and subtle way to say I think of you all the time and want to tell you everything if you would only ask? Because I would and I never really do and it is scaring the shit out of me.
If process of liking boy is like a reaction, my heart is a reactor overpressure with a residence time that’s taking too long to know if it will ever break even and/or reach full conversion.
I should probably pull the plug and count my losses.
On good hair days, I look into the mirror and wish there was someone other than me to acknowledge my good hair day.
it’s so easy to fall in love with someone you’ve just met. everything is exciting and new, there are endless possibilities of what could be and your hands tingle when they’re nearby as if to say, hold me new person and be the one that never lets me go.
but eventually, you find out more and more and feel less and less until one day you fall out of love, end up disappointed and your heart is broken...
I’m not looking for a relationship
You’re not looking for me
so what do I do when every little thing I do reminds me of You?
I miss you
February 2012
3 posts
Do I love you? Or, do I love the thought of you?
Sitting at the office kidding myself on how great it is to have all this work keeping me here so late to distract me from what I can’t seem to have;
When really all I want to do is sit around and talk about nothing with you.
Why do you tempt me with such sweet words of hope?
January 2012
6 posts
Bright doesn’t seem as bright without you.
How do you move on from nothing (again)?
It all starts with a boy, like these things normally do.
The hardest part is not knowing if it will end with a boy.
I know at least one friend with a birthday everyday of next week and yet I feel like I don’t really know anyone.
I wish I had the guts to give everyone a BIG hug.
I didn’t want this to happen but I get such a high from conversations with you
Who am I kidding? I love it, we should have conversations all the time!
December 2011
2 posts
It would probably be very convenient to want to sit around and do nothing and have someone who’d want to do the same with you.
And also probably quite nice.
pitter patter goes my heart
That moment when you’re trying hard not to reveal too much of your interest in someone but are secretly wondering if they’re trying as hard as you
September 2011
1 post
Trying to find a song to listen to that doesn’t remind me of you
July 2011
1 post
Hello,
Is it me you’re looking for?
March 2011
1 post
It was as if making eye contact would mean being lost in a future of together that I imagined us to be, a future that also seemed infinitely impossible to happen
so I look down and avoid looking into your eyes and move on to nowhere instead
February 2011
2 posts
It’s one of those days when all you want to do is curl up in the arms of someone you love and forget about the world for a long short while.
where are you soulmate?
because maybe I have a lot of love to give!
January 2011
1 post
happy times, return!
hell, I’d take the heartache and sorrow and unrequited feelings just to feel something real again.
November 2010
1 post
I hate falling in love with fictional characters. Its so depressing knowing you’re in for a disappointing end.
August 2010
1 post
I had a dream
I wake up and it’s all a lie
July 2010
3 posts
there are millions of songs out there, most about love in some way or another
day after day we listen to, hum quietly, sing out loud, quote bits and pieces of on finding love, missing someone, falling out of love, heartbreak,…
have you ever stopped to think, are we really in love? or is it just funner to pretend to be tangled up in this love feeling everyone else seems to be in?
Is a crush called a crush because your heart gets crushed from knowing it would never be more than a temporary feeling of unrequited intense like?
June 2010
4 posts
I never really got the point of missing someone.
I could understand missing things and opportunities. Places, even.
I’d go on a holiday to some exciting city and miss the little things available only back home. Or forget to bring along something like a camera and miss having the opportunity to take pictures of places I’d probably never return to. Then I’d return home and miss...
oh! boy with hair worthy of running my fingers through;
it’s me, girl of your dreams!
“Love is so short, forgetting is so long.”
– Pablo Neruda
all these people meeting each other, liking each other, falling in love, going into a relationship, getting their hearts broken, falling out of love, ending said relationship,
and then doing it all over again.
how do they do it?
how do they have so much love to give?